The Many Faces of TOM....or Why My Husband is a Saint....

TOM manifests himself in many many different ways. Well let me clarify. I don't know if it's TOM or if it's my demon that TOM likes to poke with his big pointy stick, but it's one of them.

Some months TOM is a weepy, insecure, 6 year old who wants a husband to cling to, sometimes TOM is an evil she devil whose family can't do anything right and acts like she's the only one who ever does ANYTHING around here. Some months TOM is a randy tramp that wants a husband to molest in the bathroom (the one that my particular husband doesn't seem to really mind at all) and sometimes, just sometimes TOM is all three of those delightful creatures all rolled into one.

When TOM is all of them, a typical day can go something like this.


4:15 AM Wake up and send hubby off to work with a big kiss and hug as usual.

10:00 AM Call hubby weeping and tell him that he needs to come home because I'm sad and need a hug

11:30 AM Call hubby and tell him that I'm so sick and tired of cleaning up after these &*^%*&^ dogs and couldn't he JUST take them down in the back and shoot them please!!

1:30 PM Call hubby just to tell him that I love him and can't wait till he gets home when I'm going to (insert your favorite sexual euphemism here) as soon as he gets in the door!

4:00 PM Call hubby to ask him why in the holy ^(^&%*& he isn't home from work yet and doesn't he love me anymore??

6:00 PM Hubby finally gets home wondering if he will be greeted at the door by the baby, the bitch or the slut, or maybe all three?!?!

8:00 PM Fall into bed beside a husband who immediately gathers all of my personalities into his big strong arms, locks them securely to his wide wide chest, whispers I love you in my ear and then drifts off to sleep safe in the knowledge that this too shall pass and tomorrow morning his REAL wife will be back!

Till next time......I'm unTHICKIN and soTHINNIN.......albeit just a little bit nutty! ;)

Learning the difference......

As I make the journey to health and fitness I'm having to learn the difference in alot of things. One of the biggest things I'm trying to learn is the difference between binging (what I used to do) and not depriving myself (what I need to do). I don't have any trouble staying on plan, and I rarely use my weeklies. I simply don't have cravings or usually need to use them. If I do, then I do and it's no big deal.....most of the time. Of course when that sick, sadistic, evil @#$#%!#$$! TOM is tickling me, that is a whole nother ball of wax! That is the only time that I have cravings and unusual hunger. It is also the only time that I beat myself up about having cravings and unusual hunger. Hmmmm, that's a thinker. Anywho, I'm ravenous today. I'm completely on plan, not even into my weeklies and I've got my supper all programed in. I still have 2.5 dailies left and I'm really craving chocolate. I'd really enjoy a sliced up apple with some caramel, peanut butter, chocolate dip. This comes out to 5 points which will use 2.5 of my weeklies. This isn't a big deal. Intellectually I know this. Intellectually I know that I can have that little treat to satisfy that b@stard TOM and all will be well and good. My brain knows that isn't a binge. My head knows that it's simply satisfying a craving and nothing more. However the scared little fat girl that lives inside me (and TOM with the poking of my demon) is too afraid to do it. That poor fat little girl says DON'T DO IT MAN, it's a binge! I know it isn't a binge, but that little fatty just won't believe me! I sit here and I think, well if I eat less supper I won't use my weeklies. How silly is that? I mean, any other time I could care less about using my weeklies!!! My darling husband says all women who've had a baby are crazy half the time.....during TOM's monthly visits, I'm totally inclined to believe him.

Till next time.....I'm unTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

11 week Weigh In.....

I'm down 2 more pounds for a total loss of 20.2 lbs! Whoo hoo!!

I was very nervous about weighing. I've been following the plan, working out, getting all my healthy checks in, but TOM is tickling me and I was just a little bit afraid that he might cause me to have a small gain this week. I tell myself that it doesn't matter what the scale says as long as I am on plan and I mean it, but it's still a bummer if you don't have a loss or you have a small gain. It's going to happen and it's ok when it does, you just keep on keepin on!

That said, I was very glad that I lost 2 pounds and I dropped to my knees right there in the bathroom to thank my Maker. He is giving me the strength to do this and I couldn't get through one single day without His guidance and love, not only in my weight loss journey, but in every aspect of my day!

I also couldn't get by without the support of my wonderful family, especially my sister, and all of the new friends I've made here on the WW community! The support and encouragement are a wonderful gift and I'm thankful for every one of you! :) *sniff*sniff* K I'm done now!

Till next time......I'm unTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

Ode to my bones....

I always knew I had bones. I mean my flesh didn't melt to the floor and I was able to stand upright so they must be in there somewhere right? I just never had visual conformation that they were in there! Lately it seems that every day I discover a new bone that I didn't know I had. I'm enjoying just how sexy the graceful shadow of a collar bone can be. This morning as hubby and I were relaxing in bed before starting our day, I reached my hand up to stroke his face and was surprised and excited to discover a little bone in my wrist just under my thumb. I sure didn't know there was a delicate little bone there! I've noticed that my elbows are pointier and my neck is getting thinner. It feels good. It feels sexy. It feels powerful.

Til next time..I'm unTHICKIN and soTHINNIN

Make yourself some Yogurt!!

First you are going to need a goat.....what's that? Don't have a goat?!? Well for pete sake! You'd better remedy that little detail right now! Well I suppose you could use boughten milk....if you must!

First gather up your supplies........

Not pictured in the supplies but very very important for yogurt making is of course milk. The other supplies pictured are a wide mouth quart jar that is nice and clean, your yogurt starter, and a heating pad.

After milking your goat bring your milk in the house and strain it into that wide mouth quart jar that you see sitting on the table there. Then take yourself a couple big ole tablespoons of that plain yogurt. That is your starter. After you get your own yogurt going you can just feed that to the neighbors or something cause you aren't gonna need it any more! Put the couple tablespoons of yogurt in your jar of milk and stir well. If you don't stir it you'll have lumpy yogurt!

Ok.........whew, that was exhausting wasn't it? As soon as you've rested up sufficiently, screw the lid on the jar. Now you are ready for the next step.......

Put your jar on top of that heating pad and pull it up around the jar. Fasten about three rubber bands around it to hold it up there. Plug the heating pad in and turn it on high. Now just walk off and forget about it for 12 hours or so. I know I know you are probably so worn out right now that you need a nap. It's ok, go ahead and take one, your yogurt will make itself!

After the 12 hours are up, test your yogurt by sticking a clean butter knife down the center. If it breaks away from the knife it's sufficiently "yogurty" and is ready to put in the refrigerator. If not, let er go for a couple more hours. If after 14 hours it doesn't break then something went wrong, but I've never had that happen! Now put it in the fridge and the next morning fix yourself up a bowl of this..........

and enjoy!

psssss......if you are cursed without a goat and are using store bought milk, you must heat the milk up to around 90 degrees before proceeding with the rest of the steps! (I guess anyway, I've never made it with store milk ;) Also, you can keep your yogurt going for a long time by just using it for a starter. If it ever fails to "yogurt" then just go back to the store and get you some plain yogurt to use as your starter again!

Til next time.........GOD BLESS FROM GOODWIFE FARM!

Oatmeal Spice Apple Bread...from the Kitchen of Goodwife Farm

2 cups whole wheat flour
1 cup old fashioned oats
1 tsp baking soda
3/4 tsp salt
1 tsp cinnamon
3/4 cup milk (I use whole goat's milk)
1 egg
1 egg white
1 tsp vanilla
1/3 cup yogurt (again, I use whole goat's milk yogurt)
1/4 cup molasses
1/4 cup brown sugar
2 cups apples, cored and cut into chunks, do not peel

Stir together milk, eggs, vanilla, yogurt, brown sugar, and molasses. Mix together dry ingredients and add to liquid. Mix. Gently fold in apples. Pour into well greased loaf pan. Bake at 350* for 45-50 minutes.

This is quite yummy and if cut into 14 slices comes out to 1 slice = 2 points ; 2 slices = 5 points. I think a slice of this will be fabulous for breakfast in the morning with a bowl of sliced banana topped with yogurt!

The Big Difference This Time......

I've been reflecting on what is different in my weight loss pursuit this time. First of all I'm exercising for the first time. I lost 100 lbs after the birth of my daughter without exercising so much as one mile. I did it basically by starving myself. I just conditioned my body to live on pretty much next to nothing and I lost over 100 lbs in about 4 months. I was 148 lbs for about 5 minutes and then the weight came back with a vengence. All of it.

The other major difference this time is I'm not focusing on losing weight. In all honesty, I could care less what the scale says. That is huge for me because I used to be all wrapped up in the numbers. THIS time, it's about health. I don't just say that to be saying it. It truly is about health for me. I love it that I'm losing pounds. Love it that my pants are looser, my face is thinner, I have more energy and stamina. I love love love that I'm getting stronger every single time I work out. But what I love the most is that for the first time ever in my life, I'm being good to my body. I'm treating it with loving care. I am making food choices based FIRST on what are they going to contribute to the health of my body, than on taste.

Don't get me wrong, I love food. I love to cook and make up new recipes, but if an ingredient has no nutrional value, I really just don't want to put it in my body. The only kind of chips I eat are Sunchips because they are made with whole grain. I eat an ounce of them a maximum of twice a week. I refuse to buy prepackaged "diet" food, low fat, low sugar, because I know that if they take that stuff out, they are replacing it with something that I don't want any part of. This is day 4 (I think) maybe day 5 without aspartame, and I'm glad I quit. It didn't really affect my body, but Chris got me thinking about how it was a chemical and couldn't possibly be good for me, so I quit using it.

Now don't get me wrong, I still like my raisin bran in the mornings, and my sun chips with a sandwich. I haven't gone completely "health nutty" but it's been so much easier for me to give up preprocessed snacks because I'm thinking in terms of my health. When I snack, I want it to contribute something to the nutritional equation. And seriously, now I crave homemade yogurt with bananas and homemade strawberry jam instead of ice cream. Now I want yogurt on my mashed potatoes instead of margarine, and a nice bowl of crisp veggies sauteed in canola oil is fabulous! An apple or orange means more to me than a snickers bar! And working out is more than just torture, it's the maitenence and tune up that my body needs to function.

Til next time..I'm healthilyunTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

A nice NSV (non scale victory) and an itty bitty catastrophe....

This morning I had my workout gear on and was in the bathroom putting my hair up prior to taking my daughter to school. She came in the bathroom, looked at my midsection and said "Mom! You look GREAT!" I said, well thanks baby! She said, "I can really tell that you are getting skinny!" Oh how good that made me feel! I workout in a really tight Danskin tank (to hold the girls at bay) and a pair of bootcut Danskin pants and I guess this morning she really noticed. It's so nice when an unsolicited compliment comes your way! Now....on to the catastrophe....

I was out on the treadmill in the hillbilly hotel totally rockin my Couch to K program. 13 minutes in, I hear a beating on the door. I'm in the middle of the running segment so don't want to stop, hear a frantic beating on the door again. So I jump off the treadmill to go see what's up and there is my very young (19) neighbor Cassie holding her pit bull puppy Maverick. Mav is wrapped up in a curtain of some sort. I looked up and Cassie's stricken face said "He's got a fishing lure stuck in his paw!!" Her boyfriend Jerry was at work and when she called him he told her to bring the puppy over to me to see if I could help. So me being the farm gal that I am, told her to bring him over to the other garage. I set him down on the deep freeze to ascertain the damage. That silly puppy had the hook looped through his paw all the way. The barbs of the hook were embedded so that I couldn't even slide the hook around. I clipped the hook off down closer to his skin and tried to get it out with pliers but it wouldn't budge. I told Cassie I was just going to cut his skin to get it out. Poor dear, she almost fainted then and there! She said, "Well I can't watch!!" I went in, got a sharp knife, and telling her to hold him down as tight as she could, I slit the skin, grabbed the hook with the pliers and got it out. Maverick was such a trooper he only whined twice! Such a good boy.

Off they went back home, and I got on the treadmill to finish the last 7 minutes of my workout, and then do the weight lifting portion of my day. I'm glad I was home to help her and little Maverick out!

Til next time...I'munTHICKINandsoTHINNIN

Fear raises it's ugly head.......and is squashed by Super Sarah!

Every once in awhile at totally random times, I am gripped by fear. Fear of a 50 lb mechanical buzzard landing by my mailbox? Fear of darling daughter's dog messing all over the carpet? Fear that my refrigerator will come to life and start to eat me? Nope.......not any of those things (not usually anyway). The fear is that I will fail in this weight loss journey yet again. I've lost weight before, lots of times before. Never with WW, but I've lost weight countless times, and countless times I've gained it back. I have said "I'll never get that heavy again" and then whoops, I'm not only THAT heavy, I'm heavier! I have said, "Oh I feel so much better, look so much better, blah blah blah," only to fall flat on my face, usually less than a year later. My weight has ranged from 263 all the way down to 148 (where I resided for about a total of 5 minutes) Losing the weight has never been hard. Keeping it off has proved impossible.


Lately whenever that icy hand of fear has reached out to tickle my heartstrings I have been screeching Begone yon Evil Fiend! Because seriously, if I do fail this time what's the worst that can happen (excluding the obvious health risks)? Will God forsake me, finally washing His hands of me? Will I lose the love of my husband? Will my daughter hate me? Will my family be ashamed of me and never want to be seen with me again? History says no. History says a resounding NO! I am well and truly blessed. God has been so good to me, and will continue to be good to me even when I'm not good to myself. When I ask for help, He is there and He gives it. When I don't ask for help, He is still there with His hand extended and all I have to do is reach up and take it. And sometimes, when I don't reach up and take it, He reaches down and delivers a nice hard smack upside the noggin to get my attention. I don't want Him to have to slap me with diabetes or heart disease!


I am strong. I will be stronger. I am healthy. I will be healthier. I don't want to fail this time, not at all. I feel stronger this round than I ever have before (although I'm sure I've said that before as well) but if I do fail, if I slip back into my old ways and the pounds start to creep back on, I will shout GETONOUTTAHEEYA to my fear, and climb back onto the wagon. Bloody, broken and ragged, I will not quit. I will endeavor to persevere because I am worth it. My family is worth it, my health is worth it and it's high time that I got as faithful to God as He has been to me.
Til next time, I'm holdingthehandofGodunTHICKINandsoprayerfullyTHINNIN!

What a way to start the day.....

How do you get doggie diarrhea out a berber carpet, does enybaee know?? As I staggered out of bed this morning at 4 am as I do every morning my hubby gleefully declared from the bathroom...Boy are you gonna have fun this morning! This of course makes my eyes narrow cause I know my beloved far too well. I felt my face crumple as I said....What??? He says, Well Annie must have had a bit of a digestive disturbance last night......oh dear........this ain't gonna be good. See Annie is my daughter's black lab/bluetick coonhound. She is my daughter's love and she sleeps in her room, right next to her bed. My daughter could sleep through the burning of Atlanta and not wake up even as the fire brigade was dousing her bed to put out the flames. Evidently Annie really really really hadda go bafroom and daughter didn't wake up to let her out. Our room is on the opposite side of the house so of course we didn't hear her.

In case you are wondering where I'm at today.....I'm packing up the house. I've decided it will just be easier to move rather than clean this free-cockin mess up! If you have any fabulous ideas please email them to goodgraciousdogcrapisstinkyandmaybei'llhavetokillthisdog@pleasejustshootme.com
Otherwise, I'll let you all know my forwarding address!

Till next time......I've got my nose plugged but still unTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

This is such a gorgeous gown!

I stumbled upon this article this morning. I think this is beautiful and wonderful and a nice love story and just wanted to share it here. What an amazing gown and a lovely wedding!

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1205007/Shepherdess-bride-marries-stunning-dress-wool-flock.html

Til next time........GOD BLESS FROM GOODWIFE FARM

Whole Wheat Pitas

I like to make everything that I can from scratch. I don't like to eat processed foods and very much enjoy knowing what is in my food. Today I was interested in making my own pitas, so asearchin I did go! I found a fabulous and very easy whole wheat pita recipe. I plugged it into the recipe builder and they came up as 1 point for 1 pita, or 3 points for 2. I mixed up some imitation crab filling and just ate two pita sandwiches for a delicious, filling, 8 point lunch! Here is the recipe...

Add the following ingredients to bread machine in this order...

•1 1/4 cup warm water
•1 TBSP canola oil
•1 tsp salt
•2 tsp brown sugar
•2 3/4 cup whole wheat flour
•1/3 cup vital wheat gluten * you may use whole wheat bread flour and omit the wheat gluten
•1 1/2 tsp yeast
Set bread machine to dough cycle. When cycle is complete remove dough and form into one large ball. Cut that ball into 8 equal pieces (as if you were cutting a pie). Roll each piece into a small ball, then shape into a round and roll out into a 6 or 7inch round that is about as thick as a yardstick.
Cover with a towel and let rest for about 25 minutes or so. Preheat oven to 500*. Place each round on a square of aluminum foil and bake two at a time until bread puffs up and turns slightly golden brown. Don't over bake or the pitas will be tough instead of pliable. After the first two pitas are done, stack on top of each other and cover with a damp towel. Bake the remaining pitas, stack and cover with towel. When all pitas are done, take and cut in half making a total of 16 halves. You now have a lovely piece of delicious pocket bread.

Til next time.....I'm stillunTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

Goodwife Farm Chicken Fajitas

I just got done eating some yummy yummy fajitas! Thought I'd share my recipe with you.

Tortillas
3 cups whole wheat flour, sifted
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt
Mix together well, then add in 1 cup water. Do this slowly because it may take more or less depending. You just want a nice workable dough, not sticky, but enough to hold together. Knead on a lightly floured surface and let rest for about 10 minutes or so. Divide large dough ball into 13 small balls. Let rest again for about 5 minutes. Roll one of the little balls out into circle, as thin as you can get it. Set aside.

Filling
4 oz chicken breast
1 medium green pepper, cut into strips
1/2 small onion, cut into strips

Cut 4 oz of chicken breast into thin strips. Sprinkle with seasoned salt. Quickly saute in cast iron skillet with 1/2 tsp canola oil until done. Remove from skillet and set aside to keep warm. Add another 1/2 tsp canola oil to hot skillet and saute vegetables to desired doneness. I like them crisp and I also sprinkled them with some cayenne pepper for kick!

Preheat cast iron griddle, and add a tortilla. Cook til nice and warm, then flip and cook the other side. This only takes a couple minutes, I didn't time it so am not sure exactly how long. When tortilla is done, put on warm plate, add half chicken and vegetables down center. Top with 1/4 cup salsa and 2 tsp sour cream. Fold up and EAT! Then repeat for the second tortilla. YUUUMMY STUFF! 7.5 points for both fajitas and they are nice and filling.

Till next time......I'm unTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

Busy Busy Busy...

Been making lots of salsa with the last of the tomatoes. I also canned some vegetable juice, which is really tasty. Monday I made a huge pot of vegetable soup with rabbit meat in it and canned that up. It is delicious and will taste amazing this winter! I don't buy convenience foods because I don't like all the sodium that they typically have in them. This way I can just pop open a jar of soup and have a hearty healthy meal in minutes!

Since joining Weight Watchers, I've developed a lot of really yummy healthy recipes! Today I made some whole wheat pita breads which were delicious. I got the recipe from here http://www.tammysrecipes.com/whole_wheat_pita_pockets They were super easy and super super good! Yesterday I made some whole wheat tortillas and fixed myself some chicken fajitas for lunch. The tortillas were delicious as well.

Things are good here at the homestead. We got 25 meat bird chicks in the mail last week and just had a litter of rabbits born early this morning. Nothing tastes as good as food you've raised and prepared yourself!

I've started a new quilting project. I'm working on the piecing now. Hopefully will have it all pieced and ready to quilt by the time cold weather gets here.

Hope all is well at your homesteads!

Til next time GOD BLESS FROM GOODWIFE FARM!

9 week weigh in........and it pays to shake it up!

Just got offa the scale and I'm down 2 more pounds! That makes my 9 week total loss 17 pounds! Whoo hoo!

Saturday I decided to vary my workout a little bit. On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday the treadmill and I have our love affair. I also do 120 crunches (3 different ways) and work out with weights on those days. Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday are usually my elliptical days as well as more weight lifting. However, the dreaded Program Two hasn't been so dreaded lately. As a matter of fact, it barely makes me sweat any more which isn't as fabulous as it sounds, cause that means I'm not working that hard. It is fabulous however because that means that I'm getting stronger and more fit and my endurance is picking up!

So, now that we've ran all the way around the trailer park to get to my point, on Saturday I wanted to try something different to shake things up. I put in my 10 minute solutions Kickbox Bootcamp dvd and programed it to do 4 of the 10 minute programs. One of them is called Fat Blast and let me just tell you that that one isn't made for chunky chicks!! I told hubby that one is for gals that are already fit and there was no free-cockin way that I could even attempt that yet! So, I did 30 minutes of this dvd and thought, ok, that was fine, no biggie. Well let me just tell you that Sunday my booty was sooooo sore. My butt cheeks hurt so bad that I could barely get sit down on the potty! So......for now I've broken up with the elliptical machine and am going to do this dvd for a couple weeks and see what happens. I also am starting the couch to 5 K running program and will see where that takes me.

To make a long boring story, even longer and more boring things are great!

Till next time....I'm unTHICKIN and fabulouslyTHINNIN!

A bad days turns into a great NSV....

ps......if you don't know an NSV is a non scale victory.......I started getting a headache on Friday afternoon. Saturday morning, hubby and I got up and worked out and my head was ok, but as the day wore on, it got progressively worse. By the time lunchtime rolled around I was feeling too too icky. I was hungry as was he, but I felt so terrible I didn't feel like cooking anything. He (not being on WW) could just nuke himself a couple white castles and be fine. I on the other hand could not. I felt so awful and I wanted something hot to eat, but something hot to eat meant cooking and I so wasn't up for that. I don't keep "convenience foods around. I don't like preprocessed stuff and really don't like the taste anyway. This means that unless I want a sandwich, I must cook myself something when I'm hungry. This is fine except for Saturday because I felt so awful. Here is where the NSV comes in........I went to bed. Yup, I didn't give in and nuke a corn dog, or eat chips, or some other **** I told hubby, albeit rather tearfully, that I was just going to go lay down. I laid down in my bed all cuddled up crying. Ok, so the crying wasn't that great, but sometimes ya gotta do what ya gotta do and crying about my head was lots better than self-medicating with food! A few minutes later hubby came in and said, "Can I lay down with you?" and I was like uhhh DUH, of course you can. So he got in bed with me and cuddled me close and we both took a nap. Then when we got up, my head felt better so I had some homemade goat milk yogurt with some blueberries and some granola and it was all good! Yippee for me! I'm so proud of myself for not giving in. I know that I would have just mindlessly eaten and that wouldn't have been good at all!

Then on Sunday, my family got together to take my Dad out for his 52nd birthday. We went to the Fin Inn in Grafton, and it was fab-u-los-o! I had flame broiled catfish, salad, and a baked potato for a total of 11 points and it was really yummy. It was so nice to have my sister, her husband and daughter, my folks, and then hubby, daughter and I all together. We then went to the Cabela's store which is always fun.

After my emergency situation on Saturday, I told hubby that I was going to make and can some vegetable soup so that days like that wouldn't happen. I could just heat up some delicious soup and have soup and a sandwich. So Sunday morning I put two rabbits in the crock pot, and off we went to the Fin Inn. When we got home I took them out and put the in the fridge to make soup with today. Rabbit is very low in points, comparable to chicken, only even better for you. Today I got all my stuff together and made a huge pot of veggie soup with okra, carrots, lots and lots of onions, tomatoes and some frozen mixed veggies from the store. I put that all together with my deboned rabbit and added some spices. I was totally flying by the seat of my pants cause I didn't have a recipe, but it's pretty darned delish. It's in the canner right now and I'll have to see how many jars I wind up with, but I'm pretty sure it's gonna be 2 points per serving with a serving being 1/2 of a quart jar.

So till next time...........I'm unTHICKIN and soTHINNIN!

My hubby........sorry if it's TMI...

I'd just like to take this time to introduce you all to my husband. He is the most amazing man and I love him so much. He is my best friend, my lover, my provider, and so many other things that I can't even express in words.

My husband is so fit and sexy. I ask him all the time what I did to deserve him, and of course he always says.........I just don't know. lol He's funny and snarky (like me) and silly and he knows how to laugh.

My husband has never ever made me feel unattractive. He has never made me feel fat, or frumpy, or unsexy. He once told me that I turned him on more fully clothed than any other woman did buck nekkid! That's a fabulous thing to have in a mate. I often wonder what others think when they see us together. I wonder if they are asking themselves what a guy like that is doing with a fat chick. My intimate life has been and is still amazing, no matter what my weight is doing, no matter if I'm heavy or thin. My husband desires me (alot) and it is because he loves ME, the me that makes up who Sarah is, not the outer package. Once again, that is a fabulous thing to have in a partner. We are truly partners in every sense of the word. There is no one on earth that I'd rather spend time with than him. If I have a choice of being with him or going somewhere with somebody else, I'm going to spend my time with him. Not because I have to, or because he insists it be that way, simply because he is truly my best friend in the world.

I thank God for my husband every single day. Even after 13 years of marriage we still say thank you to each other after every time we make love. Having an amazing man (or woman) to spend your life with is a gift from God and not to be taken lightly. I don't take my husband lightly, and this morning I just felt compelled to blog about him!

still unTHICKINandsoTHINNIN!

8 week weigh in....

Above is at start of WW, July 7, 2009 Below is August 31, 2009

I'm down a little over a pound this week. Yipee! I feel good, think I'm settling into the program. I still have my moments where I get discouraged thinking about how far I have to go, but I know that I'll get there and every single day I'm getting stronger, more fit, and healthy. I've lost a total of 15 lbs in my 8 weeks and I'm very happy with that. I've worked for every single pound and that is pretty cool! The picture attached is of me last night. When my husband took it and I looked at it I said, "what a fat hog" and my love frowned at me. I can't help it though. I mean I'm not going to lie to myself or sugar coat things! I then put the photo side by side with my beginning photo and did a comparison. At first I couldn't tell any difference except for my face, but then my hubby started pointing out differences. He is very encouraging to me and that's great!

Till next time.......I'm unTHICKINandsoTHINNIN