Lately I've been having some deep thoughts from my shallow mind. I love living here in Montana, it's a dream come true for me. The Youngun is doing great and is starting Karate. She has entered back into public school after a year and a half of un-schooling (yup that's what I said) and has straight A's. The Man is thriving in his training as a ranch hand and I very much enjoy helping out in whatever capacity they need me. I trust in my Heavenly Father fully and completely and know that if He should decide to send us somewhere else, we'll go willingly and faithfully.
But...........did you sense a but coming here??
I miss Champ. I miss horses. I miss critters of my own, but oh how I ache for horses. Every day as I'm driving back the 14 miles from taking Pied and The Youngun to the bus, I gaze at the mountains, coulees, hills, and valleys and I hurt to ride them with an equine pal. There is a herd of Quarter Horses along the road to the school bus and I ache to play with them. I want to groom them, and talk to them, and work with them. There are bays, and sorrels, and chestnuts, grullas, and buckskins. There is one dapple grey mare with black points that I'd bring home in a second. It's a herd of mostly broodmares and colts with a few geldings tossed in and I'm in love with them all. I've tried to fall as in love with the cows, and they are very nice, but they fall far short of a horse.
Now you may be thinking that the point of this post was that life isn't perfect, but such is not the case. As heavy as my heart sometimes gets without an equine pal, my entire being knows we are exactly where God wants us to be. Life isn't always perfect from our perspective, but in God's divine plan it is exactly, perfectly what it should be.
Till next time............God Bless........
That is deep and with what we're going through as of late, I almost think God wanted me to read this!
ReplyDeleteThanks Nicole! I always pray that God will use me in whatever capacity He has planned. Maybe this post was for you?
Deletelife without horses would be a hard thing to bear, but I am sure there will be some in your future(At least I hope
ReplyDeleteThanks fernvalley. It's hard, but I know there is a reason for it! Ps.....I printed your poem out and it's on my fridge! ;0)
DeleteI agree ... it's kinda hard to fall in love with cows. At least from my perspective. :D
ReplyDeleteI miss my favorite horse too. I often think of the grand adventures we had together.
It's a good feeling to know you're where God wants you to be.
Blessings!
Thanks Brenda, and kiss all those goat babies for me! ;0)
DeleteCan't you talk to the ranch owners? Will they let you have a horse there?
ReplyDeleteThe Man brought it up in the first couple weeks we were here and they weren't really warm to the idea. They really aren't horse people at all. They actually have 3 horses that run with the cows over at Herry Ford's house but I've only got to be up close with them once. It was torture not being able to mess with them. Two are close to 30 years old, but the other gelding is between 8 and 10, the perfect age. He's never really been messed with and he's GORGEOUS. I'd love it if they'd even let me fool with him, but I don't get the idea that they would be for it. Maybe in a couple years.....
DeleteI was thinking the same thing as small farm girl. Surely there is room for one horse and lots of room to ride it. You have been used to having so many animals and to being so independent in how you care for them...like someone who owns their own business and then goes back to work for someone else. Everyone needs to have something of their own...but maybe especially you. Why not?
ReplyDeleteThe Man brought up the subject with PK in the first couple weeks we were here and they weren't very receptive to it. Perhaps after a couple years they might warm up to the idea.
DeleteYou nailed my feelings right on the head though. What you said in your comment is exactly the summation of how I'm feeling! :)
Awww... hope you get to have a horse again soon. Pray about it.
ReplyDeleteThanks dear friend! I always pray for God's will, and what I've been praying for is the ability to truly accept that having a horse isn't His plan right now. If and when the time is right, I know God will make it happen, because He loves me and He knows my heart better than any other. Thanks Jennifer for always being there, and again, God Bless you for your generous and caring heart! ;0)
DeleteThank you Goodwife.
DeleteLooked up a rescue around where you could volunteer and sate your horse craziness for a good cause?
ReplyDeleteHi Dusky, thanks for commenting. That's a really good idea, though I don't hold much hope for there being a rescue anywhere near where I'm at. We are very very remote. Thanks for the idea though and I'm gonna check into it!
DeleteThese thoughts have entered my mind as well lately. I still have ol' Sandy-girl, but she's gettin' up there. I didn't think she'd make it through the winter, but since it was such a mild one, she's still kickin'. It'll be a sad day when she leaves us. I've only had her for 4 years, but she's the best horse I've ever had - she's never bucked, balked, or uan off with me or the kids. Preschooler has thrown temper tantrums on her back while in the middle of unfamiliar territory and she never flinched. There'll be a break from horses after her, but I'd like to think that we'll get a few when the kids get older.
ReplyDeleteAs much as these luxuries bring us joy, it's not a bad thing to be deprived, especially when God deems it so. Just think of it like an extended Lent. It may be a sacrifice, but God made the ultimate sacrifice for us, it's the least we can do for Him.
Thank you Ashley, I really needed to hear it put that way! God bless you girl!
DeleteIs there any chance the ranch owner would let you raise a colt for use on the ranch? It would be a win/win for both of you since you are so good with horses.
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I remember my momma used to always say to me ~ Life isn't perfect and it's not supposed to be. If life here on this earth were perfect, no one would ever want to leave it to go to Heaven. That little thought has carried me through many a hard time and made it all seem like things were just the way they *should* be, even if they weren't the way I *wanted* them to be.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you miss your horses though. Missing the love of a favorite kind of animal is never easy. Would they let you have one at the ranch?
Ok, I just read through the other comments and saw what you said about the owners not wanting horses right now. Seems kind of odd considering it's a ranch, doesn't it? Sorry ~ hugs ~
ReplyDeleteWhen I was little my grandpa had cows. I would ride them and pretend they were horses. You could do that and insure that you will never be forgotten in Montana. They will remember you as that silly midwestern girl that rides cows.
ReplyDeleteDeb U.
i feel for ya...it is hard at times. i still miss gabby the horse we had to leave in idaho. God has a plan my friend :)
ReplyDeleteGod bless~
Miss your posts. Look forward to the next one.
ReplyDeleteDeb U.
Are you going to be posting here anymore? I worry about you when I don't see anything written for over a month.
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I found your blog this morning while searching for information about Kinder goats. I spent a wonderful hour sipping my tea and reading about your adventures! We are also getting ready to follow God cross country, but in the opposite direction, from California to Missouri. I was greatly encouraged by your posts, and I look forward to reading more soon!
ReplyDeleteI very much understand your need and love of horses... I love my cows, but you are correct they are not a horse!
ReplyDeleteHope you are doing well. Just thinking about you.
ReplyDeleteWhat you think about and dream about comes about. Don't give up, there's a horse somewhere someplace that is meant for your care.
ReplyDeleteWishing you and all of your loved ones all of God's blessings.
Hey - how are you and yours doing? Im hoping you are so busy and having fun and all that stuff that You dont have time to blog!!!
ReplyDeletehugs!
Just want to say... I really miss your blog post :(
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas.
Just doing some clean up on my blog and going through some older ones - hope all is well! Happy New Year.
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