Monday, January 28, 2013

Who I Am?

Since our lives have changed so drastically this is a question I've asked myself many times.  The Man and I have talked about it, and I know he has felt lost, but he deals with it better than I do.  At times I think his faith is even greater than mine.  He simply says it's a chapter of our life that is done now, and we have to look with excitement and anticipation to the future.  I tend to be like Lot's wife, glancing back all the time, although I'm learning not to do it so often.  I talked to my friend Darlin' Deb on the phone the other day and told her that our place in IL was up for sale, (although I do believe it has since sold).  She asked me if it made me homesick for our old house.  I said no........I do miss my barn though.  See that's who I am.  It really is......animals, critters, barn life.  But.......that's not where God wants me right now and that's ok.  It really is.  Do I want it all again??  You bet, but only if and when He says I can have it. (Even though in reality I'm constantly reminding Him that I'm ready NOW!)

So who am I right now?  I am God's.  I belong to Him and I seek to serve Him in whatever capacity He sees fit.  I am The Man's wife.  I love being his wife, and I'm a goodwife as he is a good husband.  I am The Youngun's mama.  God has blessed The Man and I with this one.  She is a treasure.  A Godly child, and I love the relationship He's allowed us to have. 

I want my entire life to be a testimony.  I want the light of Jesus to burst forth from my every pore.  I'm weak, and I struggle, and I fail God every day, and still He loves.  That is a beautiful thing, and I'm so happy to belong to Him!

This is my current favorite song.  The first time I heard it, I got tears.  I'm so ready to look over and see Jesus coming!!

Until next time..........


  1. I am listening too for the call. My husband and I have been looking forward to the rapture for many, many years, and it just seems like it could be at any time. He didn't get to see it as he was taken home to be with God in December. He is waiting for me there.

    May you feel the light and love of Jesus flowing through and surrounding you each and every day.

    FlowerLady Lorraine

  2. You are a very strong woman, all you and your husband have faced, and maintained your faith and love for one another and for God

  3. I'm listening too ...

    You are an inspiration in your strong faith in God and your family.

    - Blessings!

  4. Girl... I'm listening too. Sometimes I wonder who am I and now with the kids starting to leave the nest I find myself wondering it more... more than likely in 5 short years they will all be gone... then who will I be... I dont know... but I'm willing to find out... waiting for God to lead me. I do pray and tell him my life is in his hands.

    Your a very blessed woman.

    ps we got to get together soon.


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