Who I Am?

Since our lives have changed so drastically this is a question I've asked myself many times.  The Man and I have talked about it, and I know he has felt lost, but he deals with it better than I do.  At times I think his faith is even greater than mine.  He simply says it's a chapter of our life that is done now, and we have to look with excitement and anticipation to the future.  I tend to be like Lot's wife, glancing back all the time, although I'm learning not to do it so often.  I talked to my friend Darlin' Deb on the phone the other day and told her that our place in IL was up for sale, (although I do believe it has since sold).  She asked me if it made me homesick for our old house.  I said no........I do miss my barn though.  See that's who I am.  It really is......animals, critters, barn life.  But.......that's not where God wants me right now and that's ok.  It really is.  Do I want it all again??  You bet, but only if and when He says I can have it. (Even though in reality I'm constantly reminding Him that I'm ready NOW!)

So who am I right now?  I am God's.  I belong to Him and I seek to serve Him in whatever capacity He sees fit.  I am The Man's wife.  I love being his wife, and I'm a goodwife as he is a good husband.  I am The Youngun's mama.  God has blessed The Man and I with this one.  She is a treasure.  A Godly child, and I love the relationship He's allowed us to have. 

I want my entire life to be a testimony.  I want the light of Jesus to burst forth from my every pore.  I'm weak, and I struggle, and I fail God every day, and still He loves.  That is a beautiful thing, and I'm so happy to belong to Him!

This is my current favorite song.  The first time I heard it, I got tears.  I'm so ready to look over and see Jesus coming!!

Until next time..........